Saturday, June 16, 2012

Rhythm, Interrupted

Saturday - June 16, 2012

Sleep has been sketchy the last three nights.  Obviously, I am over my collapse-on-the-couch-and-sleep-away-the-day stage for this cycle.  Now I go to bed feeling restless and unable to do one of the things that I really do best: sleep.  For 30 years, Joe has admired my sleeping prowess so it is a bit of a surprise that my physical exhaustion is not translating into snooze time!  Joe and I were both awake before 6 a.m. cuddling Sadie and listening to the birds.  Why in the world was I not sleeping away?  Oh well.  I revel in that first self-assessment of the day:  Double vision?  Fleeting and minimal.  Headache?  Non-existent.  Thank you, chemo.  Then I consider my new challenge of managing my pulse.  Still very high at rest.  Slow movements and minimal activity are again the order of the day.

In reading the NYT this morning, I challenged my general reluctance to read cancer blogs and finally gave in to Life, Interrupted, a transcendent blog by 23 year old Suleika Jaouad.  I highly - highly - recommend it.

2 comments:

Kim said...

Excellent articles in the Life, Interrupted blog. Suleika Jaouad writes with humor, sweetness, sadness and a wisdom that no one should have to develop at her age.

Unknown said...

I am so moved by her insight and precision of language and emotion. So young to have to weather such trauma and she has done so with such amazing grace. Grace and wisdom are the words that keep reverberating as I read and reflect. Suleika is foremost in my mind today