Monday - December 3, 2012I've shaken off my weekend sleepiness and perhaps a bit of sleep-focused concern.
Me: "Why am I sleepy? What does it mean? Is it a symptom? Should I be worried and call it in?"
Joe: "Maybe you're just tired."
Umm ... I guess that settled my undercurrent of nerves ... to a certain extent :) I expect that I will be nervy at anything that could hint of a re-emergence of lymphoma for the foreseeable future .... Once you lose trust in your body, it is hard to build it back up. The recent MRI provided some relief. Now I would like a CT scan please.
2 comments:
Oh, Chrissy, this was one of the hardest fears to shake for my mom. You have put it so well...once you lose trust...but build, you must, for your own sanity.
When Annalisa went to the Pain Rehab center and found out that for people with chronic pain, pain no longer means harm, that was a revelation. The discussion that went with it, though, was, "So how do I know when I need to go to the doc or the ER?" Perhaps a very specific conversation with your oncology nurse can help you identify a set of symptoms that, taken together, would be important to identify as warning signs. Other than those warning signs, you treat symptoms as any one else would. I know how hard this is. You have to retrain yourself, but you can do it!
I hope you had a great day subbing!!!!
Hugs,
Kim :)
Subbing was absolutely splendid, Kim! It was terrific to be out in the world and in such a lovely and familiar community. A step in the right direction!
I am back to feeling sleepy and its tandem underlying feeling of wariness and concern. I'm just going to have to accept what is a natural sensation for folks who *don't* have cancer. I am not experiencing any warning signs (such as a mega headache that won't go away or any lumps or vision changes) but there's always that undercurrent! Can you imagine my overreaction if/when I get a headache? Yikes! Prepping myself in advance to stay calm for that eventuality.
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